Let it go already

img_2378My father died tomorrow on a day just like today. I gave him CPR with my compadre. She ventilated and I did the compressions. 1993. It felt invasive, weirdly intimate. I never got that close to him. This was unfamiliar territory in every way. Touching him? Pressing on his heart with all my might? Calling him back with fierce honesty? “DAD, COME BACK!”

It became palpable that his spirit had left and he ...

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Mindful Manic

“The mind can go in a thousand directions,
but on this beautiful path I walk in peace.
With each step, a gentle wind blows.
With each step, a flower blooms.”
Thich Nhat  Hanh

“Get Thee to a nunnery”, I heard the voice say. I answered, ok. Where is the nearest nunnery following the Thich Nhat Hanh tradition? As Life would have it, I got to disappear and reappear for 5 days practicing mindful everything with 35 monks ...

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De nada



I admit it. I went into a foreign land, about to immerse in a new culture on my own only knowing two words in Spanish; hello and thank you. Not pretty. And its shocking how far those two simple words can bring a person into this rather friendly universe and into a small sea of Mexican people living their lives. I got schooled on ...

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What are you enlightened to?

1434_10153875031544283_4019140621993498253_nMy fascination with freedom became most palpable after spending time this past year with the inmates at Maine Correctional Center located 44 miles from the place I call home. I shared tools with the men and women that call MCC their home. It feels right and kind to share tools that have brought me great glimpses of mental and emotional ...

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Leave everything you know behind…

Lay yourself on the slab of openness
and wait for the knife of my beauty
to gash you so deep with the Beloved’s radiance
that you can never recover.

In this high place
it is as simple as this,
leave everything you know behind.
Step toward the cold surface,
say the old prayer of rough love
and open both arms.
Those who come with empty hands
will stare into ...

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Who Am I?

I am Jen, female, 46.7 years old, white. I am a partner, sister, daughter, aunt, God mother, niece, cousin. I am an ex. I am the last of nine children. I am a friend, community member, teacher, guide, facilitator, retreat leader, business owner. I am one who dabbles in writing. I am Lithuanian and French. I am an environmental leader, a ...

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Life On the Other Side…

Where Does the Temple Begin, Where Does It End?
There are things you can’t reach.
But you can reach out to them, and all day long. The wind, the bird flying away.
The idea of God. And it can keep you as busy as anything else, and happier.The snake slides away; the fish jumps, like a little lily,
out of the water and back in; the goldfinches sing
from the unreachable top of the tree.I look; morning to ...

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All One

Have you ever had the sneaky suspicion that there is no actual separation between us or any thing? “All is One” is a teaching offered by all the masters it seems. Even Dr. Bronner is on board!

“All is One” is only a spiritual concept until it is experienced. The conceptual and the experienced are world’s apart.

At the end of Savasana one time, I experienced a wave of boundary-free existence. I felt like there was no separation from the people in ...

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